POST-7: “Always Been That Little Fat Boy…”

Welcome to 2021. As the title reads: “I've always been that little fat boy”. What does this mean?.. Well, I've always been that little fat boy! 🙂 I've struggled with my weight my entire life. Growing up, playing sports, searching for that beautiful girlfriend that all the guys want, that was me. I wish I had a dollar for every shot that was taken, in an Attempt to win over someone's heart. I wish I had a nickel, for every moment I felt insecure about whether or not I belonged in certain groups, or could “hold my own” while participating with others whom I felt less than, in Comparison to. Oftentimes, people are puzzled with the fact that “King” Arthur could ever be insecure about anything! Or have fears, bc he pushes through so much! How could you possibly think that you were any less than, or incompetent, or incapable of performing certain feats, when you have already done so much? It's an anomaly, no doubt. Vulnerability is a tricky thing. As a student of Leadership, and follower of Christ, feelings of uncertainty are always present. Sometimes, you know in your heart of hearts that you can do anything, but the world/Universe/energies around you say different. For someone with Faith & confidence, this can be very disheartening. One moment, you're on top of the world, the Next you feel pulled in a different direction. You yield to this Energy, because you know your purpose. You have already committed and submitted yourself to a life of service. Your goals and Ambitions (although near and dear to you) take a back seat to whatever Greater calling God has over your life. I spoke previously about the Egoic mind. How identity is formed in us all based on past experiences, whether voluntarily initiated, or subjected to through no faults of our own. Imposter Syndrome is ever present in society. It has always been a thing, but in today's Social-Media driven world, where false perceptions are thrust upon us, it is very difficult for students to understand who they are, what they're supposed to be doing in life, etc. I tell people that although I've done amazing things in Life, and hope to do many more, I am really no different than they are! I still get nervous around a beautiful woman when I want to ask her out on a date. I still feel shy around people when trying to make new friends. I still feel like that little fat boy who wanted to run with the bulls on the playground, but couldn't keep up. What am I saying? The feelings of inadequacy never stop. We Level up through them. Courage is found by “walking in the dark”, trying something new, and taking the next logical step, even when you're terrified. I wish there were an easier way out, but there isn't. I have gotten over a great deal of fear since my childhood, by asking those pretty girls out for a dance, dressing up nicely to attend those networking events to shake hands with Top-6 &7 Figure earners, so that I can learn more about business, and signing up for those sporting events to hopefully one day, make the team. Was I scared? Sure. Did I feel a bit uncertain at times? Definitely. But the proof is in the pudding. I've been blessed to have an extended network, and family in which to Collaborate with. I’ve played alongside teamates, as a starter on the “A-Team”, contributing to their success, vs being a third-leg. Ive gained the confidence to meet Beautiful women, ask them out on dates, and more. And all of this came in spite of my fears. All of these experiences occurred because I did not quit. I did not allow that insecure, “little fat boy's” voice to overrule my thinking so much, that I was unable to take another step forward. It's practice more than anything. Being a star athlete, making a million dollars, or dating the captain of the cheer team all mean nothing at all in the grand scheme of things. But what is important is #perseveranceandgrowth. If it were not for my courage to Embrace the voice, mind, and heart of that “little fat boy” inside, I never would have allowed him to feel safe. I never would have been able to Motivate and encourage him to Believe, and be the best he could be. And thus, prove to his self that anything is possible. No matter who you are, where you're from, so on and so forth. I use the term “little fat boy” loosely, because it represents the Egoic child if my past. We all have a “little fat boy”. Within us all. May he's a She. Maybe she's not fat at all. Maybe he’s short, tall, rich or poor, whatever. This “kid” that lives within us, and represents a foundational part of our identity and societal make-up, needs to be cultivated and nurtured. Sometimes, tough love is in order, but other times, it's just about being sweet. 🙂 #HurtpeopleHurtpeople. Folks around you will say and do mean things to you, for no good reason at all. Essentially, they are hurt themselves, and haven't made peace with their own self-hatred. My challenge to you, is instead of fighting fire with fire, fight hatred with love. Feel Empathy towards those who do you wrong because it is a reflection of their own weakness, vs a deficiency on your part, as they insist it always is. So, yeah. Love yourself. Pay more attention to how u feel, and how others make u feel. Know the difference. Be sure to never forget Any wrongdoings people have done to you in the past, because lessons must be learned. However, protect your good heart. Practice forgiveness as quickly as possible, because that gesture is meant solely for you. I hope this message is encouraging as you push through into another year. I hope you find Motivation in these words to do the impossible, and make the world a better place. As always, I appreciate your continued support, and look forward to the Beautiful things you plan to create. With love, Always, “that little fat boy “.—KING